I feel depression coming on. I've been trying to avoid it, but after my doctor's visit today....and seeing several very pregnant women, I can't help it anymore. I got some good advice from friends on Facebook last week to eat lots of ice cream and chocolate. I've done some of that, but now what? How do I deal with the fact that after 2 years of trying I finally got pregnant, only to have a miscarriage? I just have so many questions and a lot of heartache. When is it going to be my time? My doctor said that I need to become really athletic....yeah, right. I am working on a plan but it's going to be hard, especially since all I want is something deep-fried and smothered in chocolate!
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How incredibly random is it that we had been trying for almost 2 years when I had my miscarriage a few months ago? I've spent a lot of time wondering why people who smoke, drink, do drugs &/or don't want a baby at all get pregnant and have babies easy as pie, and we, who would love to care for and love any number of children that may come to us, are having trouble having more. It's not like I'm anywhere near the end of my "childbearing years" either. This life doesn't make much sense when I can't remember everything I know I know. Annoying. I'm not making sense much, but I wanted you to know that I understand at least some. I did indulge myself afterwards a bit, but then the Spirit reiterated to me that I needed to take better care of my body and lose some weight before I can get pregnant again, so I started counting calories (I use a program called dietpower), and it feels great to get a bit healthier. Meanwhile, indulge in some See's by proxy for me, since we don't have one near us (dark butterchews... mmmm...). *HUGS*
I wish I knew what to say. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. I know it probably doesn't feel like it right now, but remember that your Heavenly Father loves you. He will take care of you. Just keep him very close.
Yeah, why is it that when we really need chocolate, we always feel guilty about having it? I could pretty much live off of it for the next few weeks while Shane's gone, but I just keep hearing some doctor's voice saying in my head, 'gain only twenty pounds'.
Anyway, I'm really glad you're talking about it--that's really healthy.
I don't know if this would help or not, but I'd be happy to be your health buddy. We could email each other how we're doing with food and exercise as they say it's good to have a partner to be accountable to when you're making life changes. Whatever I can do to help, I'd love to do!
You are a beautiful and amazing mother Shannon! Don't forget it!
I'm so sorry Shannon. There are few things as devastating, as a woman, than losing a baby. I'm glad you're talking about it, too. I've found that nearly every woman has gone through at least one miscarriage and they are more than willing to talk about it and help others going through the same thing. I don't know if that would help you or not to talk to others about it? I wish I lived closer still so I could take you to Cafe Rio.
You are honestly one of the kindest, most patient mothers I've ever met. So I really don't know why you are having to endure this. But if anyone can come through it with flying colors, I know YOU can :) Love you!!
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