I just found out that a friend of mine lost his brother yesterday and it took me back to almost 2 years ago when Erin died. It was one of the hardest times of my life and I see how deeply it has affected me today. I still struggle with bad habits, like over eating when I feel sad or feeling extreme guilt for not doing things better.
But now that it is close to 2 years since I lost Erin, I can see the progress I have made. I feel peaceful and I know that Erin is in the right place. I don't worry about her anymore and I know she is helping me get through my struggles on earth. I often think how fortunate I am to have Erin on the other side to guide me along. I am trying to live a better life and follow her example of compassion and service.
Erin's roommate Jennifer told me that she loved her cooking so much and asked her once how she made it so good. Erin told her that she took a little love from the air and threw it into everything she made. I have tried that a few times and it sure does something! Oh, it makes me miss her!
I hope my friend will be able to get through this difficult time. We all handle death differently. Some of us haven't experienced it yet. It is not easy, but thank goodness for a loving Heavenly Father who helps us through it and who understands our sorrow.
2 comments:
I love that Erin-ism: "I take a little love from the air..." That's awesome. I think she threw a little love into most things she did.
I'm proud of the progress you've made, honey, and how strong you've been despite how much you miss her. You've certainly been a pillar of hope and strength more than I could have been in similar circumstances. You're such an example to me.
I sure do love you.
Your blog is wonderful!! I've had a hard time getting it because it shows up with pictures but no text most of the time, but this time I WAS able to read!
Erin's death has deepened us, hasn't it? I'm grateful she's safe and well, but I miss her like crazy.
But guess what? I miss you and every member of the family too! I'm really looking forward to being together soon.
Keep writing! Both of you have valuable, funny, insightful and interesting things to say and I'm grateful to get a glimpse of your thoughts and (sometimes warped-haha) perspectives! I love you so much! NLYSYITM mamaj
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